Guess What.....

I got a job!!! It a little temp deal…maybe more…but I am excited. Told you not to worry, I am so likeable I knew it wouldn’t take too long. Yeah!!! I start on Monday…wish me luck!!!

I finished my post cards last night…pretty simple…but I am quite fond of them…I will post a picture after I mail them. I don’t want to ruin the surprise. Oh, and the socks…I’ll post a picture of those too.

Excitement is in the air over here….Happiness too.

Speaking of quotes….here’s a good one….

Here's the skinny.....

In regards to my last post and my total $hit day…a long story short would be the fact that I am being laid off. Friday will be my last day at my current job. While I am not entirely in love with my job, it was a decent job that worked fairly well with my schedule of Tae and school and wife-ing. So in that regard, it sucks. It’s one of those unfair life situations where even though you are a great employee you still get the $hit sandwich in the end. The timing is bad too, I am sure the timing is bad for anyone who gets fired, but this job would have helped greatly with my “BIG SURPRISE”…but I am a smart girl, I have many talents, and I will figure this one out…like I have with SO many situations before. While many aspects of this job totally suck, I did get to spend time with some great people, and who could complain about seeing their sister everyday at work??? And Freddy???I guess I will just have to stalk them at home now. So that is how my day went to hell…I was just frustrated, as most everyone in my office seems to be about this situation. And such is life.


PS…Family, don’t freak about this…we’ve have it under control :)

The day is shot to HELL...

...that's code for a very bad day people! I am counting the minutes until I get to go pick up my girl and GO HOME! Hope to be more cheery this evening.



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Some things in life just are not fair. That's all I am going to say about it.

Swapping Crazy…

I had so much fun with the ornament swap that I decided to join two low key swaps this month. The first one is a sock swap; I mail one pair of socks to someone in the world (they tell me who, it’s international though so technically it is ‘somewhere in the world’) and I get one pair in return. The second one is a quote postcard, I send three postcards with a favorite quote on them and I get 3 in return, same idea applies ‘somewhere in the world’.

I received my first postcard…I like it…I haven’t decided if it is supposed to be funny or not. What do you think?
The quote I picked is all “be all you can be” minus the army factor of course. Next time I think I will pick a funny one. I’ll post mine when they are ready…remember...last minute for me.

As a side note…apparently it is summer here. I know the weather is amazing and we hit the 80’s most days…but don't you think the stores could hold off a few weeks before busting out the shorts, tank tops, and sundresses??? It is JANUARY…how is a person supposed to by a long sleeve shirt for her daughter when the shirts don’t even have sleeves???

Hope you are all having a great weekend.

Remember...LIFE IS GOOD. REAL GOOD.

I am a ROCK STAR that is so mad I could SPIT....

I am going to quote my current professor and give myself a big ol’ “I am totally a rock star badge”....this is what she said….

“You wrote a remarkable paper this week…You did exactly what I want other students to do--use your sources as tools, quote and cite where necessary, and use your own analysis…Sarah--outstanding work!”

That definitely has you are a “ROCK STAR” all over it. She had other wonderful things to say about me, but I know you guys can only take so much.

Don’t mean to toot my own horn (actually I do) but this working, Mom-ing, wife-ing, student thing is a little tough…so when I get a comment like that, it totally floats my boat.

About the so mad I could spit….

Haven’t quite gotten to the bottom of it but my gut feeling tells me that the Dr. we saw the other day “accidentally” prescribed Tae the wrong dosage of antibiotics. All her other prescriptions (and trust me we have had plenty) were for 300mg (I know because I am a freak and I keep all the empty bottles of her meds) and this one was for 500mg. Poor little thing was puking her heart out all day yesterday…more like she had morning sickness than the flu. It did a horrible number on her little tummy and she couldn’t keep anything down. Called the doctor’s office this morning and funny thing happened…they called in a different antibiotic for 300mg. Go figure. You can spit with me now.

Lovely bottle of “treasures” T collected yesterday at Noni and Poppy’s house…snails, flowers, part of a clothes pin, even a live ant.

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A little sugar with the sick....

So the little pie is still sick…she spiked a high fever last night and passed out just after 6. She had been feeling a lot better so when she spiked the fever I knew she must have some kind of infection. We weren’t sure which, sinus, chest, ear…all three. I freaked a little when I realized she had some nasty looking fluid coming out of her right ear…she has tubes so it can come out easily, but it isn’t normal. So this morning off to the doctor we went. As usual, T was lively and spunky this morning…not looking tip top but looking pretty good. Long story short, she has an infection in her right ear canal and most likely her sinuses…but they think we caught it before it could spread to her chest….because her lungs sound clear. However, her lungs always sound clear…even when we took her to the ER for pneumonia. So we are home today just chillin…I am fully prepared for her fever to come back tonight…but for now we are two peas in a pod chillin on the couch munchin on cereal watching a made for TV movie about dancing….and LOVIN it.

I am still feeling the high from yesterday…love the feeling in the air...the buzz. Makes me smile....I love to smile.

Today is a weird day for me…this day last year I lost the baby....and while I was anxious about how I would feel when this day arrived…I feel a little pinch but more or less I am feeling good. I think that being home with my T and just relaxing is just what I needed….funny how life takes care of you. Not much more to say…I have my wonders but I am enjoying them and keeping them as my own.

Just playing around and torturing T with the camera while she was munchin…love the little hands all sugar coated.

Progress is BEAUTIFUL....

...yes it is! This morning I set the DVR to record the inauguration, since I have to be at work. This is an amazing day in history and I don't want to miss it...even though I won't be a part of it until several hours after the inauguration is over...I am anticipating watching this evening. I was happy to see that Tae’s school brought a TV into the class and all the little kiddos where watching the ceremony today…together. I am not entirely sure how long it will hold their interest, but I am happy with the thought that T is old enough to remember watching this historical event. It will be something she can share with her children, her grandchildren, something great that she witnessed. I am sitting in my office, surrounded by people that would have preferred to have the cards fall the other way, yet I am still overjoyed that today has arrived. It means so much to me on so many levels. This is a good day, this is progress, and this is change. Change is GOOD.



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Happy MLK Day.....

Tae gave me a lesson on Martin Luther King Jr. She was very excited when I mentioned his name and this is what she had to say:


“Martin Luther King was a great man mom! He got shot by mean people because he was changing the rules. He CHANGED the world mom! Now we have a no work no school day for him. “


And really more or less she described it in a nutshell. So wise that girl Tae….so wise.

You likey....

....The new look? Think it's pertty? Think it is the change I was talking about? Well....it's NOT!!! And if you know....please don't tell...it's not time :) But I do love my new look...love my beautiful girl.

Change is good...

Just wanted to let you all know you might be seeing some changes aound here...won't be right away...but it should be big...and hopefully you will

LOVE it.


I really think you are going to LOVE it.


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Hey Gin.....

Today is KL's birthday over at Time with La & Lu, help make her day special and go wish her a happy day! I love my KL :)


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Sick day...

Miss T is sick today...little sore throat...cough...and lots of runny boogs. I think maybe we both just needed a stay home day...I know I did. The wacked-ness of yesterday just seemed to snowball as the day progressed...probably good that we didn't leave the house today. It is so easy to get stuck in the Go-Go-Go and so hard to just step back and take a break...today we stepped back.

Here is the girl...still beautiful even with a cold.

We made all of these with her new connectagons she got from sister for Xmas...Love the colors.

I am working on few ideas...I'll let you know if they develop into anything :)

One more thing...

So to top off my morning I got to witness my sweet girl being picked on as she went into her classroom. PICKED ON by her FRIEND! As usual I walked her to the door…we had or kisses and hugs and she went inside while I signed her in. I then opened the classroom door to let her teacher know I would drop snack off this afternoon. This is the conversation I heard…

Good friend (1) of Tae’s who will remain unnamed was sitting at a table with another friend (2) of Tae’s.

Friend 1 says to Tae: “Why is your hair like THAT?”
Tae: “My Mommy did my hair so it won’t be all tangled tonight. It hurts when I brush it.”

Which is very true, we have been having a few issues with the tangled fine…fine…fine hair she has…so the best solution was we are back to hair styles. She had pig tails that were folded over into little buns…a completely normal hair style that she has often.

Then friend 1 turns around to friend 2 and says: “I NEVER want to have a hair-do like THAT!”

Seriously! MY POOR GIRL…I couldn’t see her because she was around the corner, but my heart broke a little for her. There was NO reason for this to take place. Not to be mean and pick on another person’s child…but friend 1 doesn’t even BRUSH her hair…friend 2 is a boy and all he said was “I can’t have pony tails, I don’t have enough hair.”

It was all I could do to stay out of the class…I see a talk about people saying mean things in my future...possibly between mommy and the teacher...but definitely between T and I.

And as a random side note…when I went to use the restroom just a minute ago…someone left a nugget floating in the pot…what is up with today?? So GROSS!!!!

Hope your day isn’t all wacked out like mine…good luck to ya!

Pick me up....

I need a distraction….work is not cutting it and my Constitution class is not cutting it either. Tough day for me….off to a rocky start...I made OUR appointments for OUR consultations at the infertility specialist...N goes on Monday and I go next month after I have one last test done at our current doctor’s office. I went to the specialist’s web site and printed out my paperwork…then browsed around and then CRAPPED my pants (theoretically) when I saw the fees. Remember insurance does not cover infertility…so with every visit (I imagine) they will have the “Cha-Ching” sound effect as a fork over my money UPFRONT. It’s not so bad, Sister keeps telling me it’s not so bad and to think of what I have to look forward to…in the long run…not the near future. Got to get my enthusiasm back up to par…got to get back in the saddle and focus on the outcome…the possibility…the reward. Time to get my game face on…if you saw my face today you would probably laugh…not showing signs of determination over here…Must change this ASAP! Because who can’t fight for something as precious as this…..
....Some way some how....we will have this!

Cotton....

Yesterday we went on a little adventure with Noni and Poppy and ended up roaming around a cotton field in the middle of an Indian Reservation. Tae had the best time and found some treasures to take to show and tell this week. It was nice to watch her enjoy something I remember doing when I was little...I have pictures of me...maybe a little older than she is now...in the middle of a cotton field with the same excitement. She was too cute...on the way home she asked me if we were going to make some clothes out of the cotton we picked :)

Black Curls...and a Basket....

Last night I had a dream…a dream that made me feel so happy and at the same time left me feeling such emotional turmoil. Last night I was in labor (don’t worry it wasn’t painful) and I had three babies…I had THREE BABIES. Only one of them didn’t survive, I never got to see the one that didn’t make it…of course I saw the baby but it had the blurry face and was unrecognizable…I didn’t connect with that baby. The other two, they were beautiful. A boy and a girl…the boy looked like T when she was a baby and the girl, she had a lot of curly black hair. Surprisingly, in my dream, I bounced back to perfect health the next day and was dancing around with my two babes. I remember I was having trouble carrying two infants and I decided to carry them in a wicker basket, all bundled up in their blankies. I carried them around the park, in the basket, while Tae played…all the dark curly hair and all. I remember looking over my shoulder…always looking over my shoulder…and I knew I was looking for my third baby. I don’t remember being sad about the third baby…I think because I was so focused on the two that I had…but I remember feeling like something was missing….I woke up in the middle of the night and knew what I was dreaming about, I was so happy even when I was awake but I quickly went back to sleep to reenter my blissful dream… to get back to my babies. But when I woke up this morning I was filled with that feeling of something was missing…I wasn’t sad but I felt that ache in my chest…the ache that grabs your breath just a little…and I can’t get the picture of my two babies in a basket out of my head….I don’t know if I feel like I am missing the two in the basket or the one I never knew…maybe all three.

Mad Skills....

Seriously MAD skills people...N and I both tried and I am horrified to say that we couldn't do it :( Look at her go....

Christmas over yonder.....

We did have Christmas over here…we moved into our new house and celebrated Christmas almost simultaneously. Just a quick recap of our holiday festivities….


These are the gifts Tae took to school for her teachers….all SEVEN of them. Every year we (which reads I) pick a special ornament for the teachers…add some chocolates…and a giant chocolate bar for her 2 head teachers and TADA…Merry Christmas to the SEVEN people who teach my 4 year old.

I found these at Cost Plus World Market…they are handmade in India and represent good luck and new beginnings…thought that was cool…pretty bummed actually that I didn’t get one for our tree.




We had our traditional Xmas Eve at Sister’s house…making cookies for Santa and going to zoo lights…these are the only decent pictures I have. True to my nature I managed to “misplace” the charger for my camera…so my battery died shortly after I snap a few shots…all the rest of the Christamas pictures are taken with our old camera.

Tae’s loot from Santa

It has been all Mama Mia up in this house since Xmas…T got the CD in her stocking and Noni got the movie….after all the gifts had been opened Tae exclaimed with the disappointment of a child who hadn’t gotten anything….”Santa brought me everything I wanted for Christmas…EXCEPT MAMA MIA!!!” And, because my mom is the good Noni that she is, she willingly handed over HER new movie to the girl that wooed her with her 4 year old disappointed face. I swear the movie was on repeat the entire day.

T spent a good portion of the morning on this little treasure from Santa…

My beautiful girl…love her!

So that pretty much sums up our holiday extravaganza…We are in our house now and it literally looks like someone vomited all of our belongings throughout the entire house. Tae is gleefully opening boxes and strewing toys from the old days…back when she was 2…in every room. N is patiently dealing with me as I ponder meticulously where the perfect home for every item would be…very happy when that perfect home is Goodwill or the trash. In time…in time the house will be organized. We are loving the house...chaos and all.

It is an understatement to say that Tae is obsessed with Mama Mia…over the break we were in Barnes and Noble looking at CD’s and Tae was occupying herself by listening to the Mama Mia sound track (with the head phones on)….N came walking over to me laughing and shaking my head…I explained to him that there was nothing quite like listening to your 4 year old belt out “give me give me give me a MAN” in the middle of a very quiet bookstore. Hey, if you have some free time to play…Tae will gladly be Sophie and you can be Donna…just so you know…that option is always open.