Have you seen this???

MTV's 16 and Pregnant - MTV Shows

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I have heard mixed reviews of this episode. I personally found it very touching and very inspirational. If you have 40 minutes of free time, I suggest you watch it, I also recommend you grab some tissues and maybe close your door.

For me it was a window into the unknown. I know that my situation may not be exactly the same as the one displayed in this video, but it could be very similar. I can only hope that our birthparents are as remarkable as these two young parents are.

I commend these two teenagers for their maturity and their strength. They possess a level of selflessness that all parents should possess and unfortunately some parents never develop. I was watching the “Dr. Drew” follow up show and N and I both were in awe to hear these kids explain that they were able to do this because it was not about THEM. That once you have a child that life is no longer about you; it is about what is best for the child. I know I did not possess that wisdom when I was 17. I completely lost it during the delivery scene when Tyler covers Catelynn’s face with his body so she doesn’t have to see the baby. The things he says and the emotions…very emotional…very strong. Such inspirational and insightful people at such a young age, I am so happy that they found each other.

3 months later, at the follow up episode, they say they are at peace with their decision.

Anyway…if you have a little time I suggest watching this.

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Sweet Music...

So simple, yet SO fun!

Good day??? Bad day??? Somewhere in-between???

Just feeling overwhelmed…feeling very appreciative of the wonderful family I have…feeling like I should live more in the moment…more for those smiles and laughter and love…less for those material things that don’t really matter…they really don’t matter…but people do.

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Front to Back...

I finished a book...a real book...not a text book, not a children's book...an escape into another person's world book. It's been too long...I love books.

As a side note...Tae just told be she tried to shave her face by rubbing water and her tooth brush all over her face...hmmm. She has now melted into a pile of laughter on the floor...tried to shave her face....hmmm =/


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Jumping in….

It’s been awhile since I REALLY did this so here it goes….

Summer has been wonderful, hectic, calm, busy, yet relaxing. This is the first summer that we have all been together, in one place, not traveling. We haven’t done anything elaborate, yet we have had a great time just being with each other.

I have taken up running. I always had this feeling that I may have the “runner” mentality in me, but every time I would give it a try I would feel defeated, in pain, and give up. I have been enjoying the run the last few weeks; I guess I have found my rhythm. I am on a mission to shrink the equator known as my WAIST.

We are getting down to business around here…making cutbacks and doing everything we can to bring baby home that much faster (I realize baby still has to be born but the ‘matching’ process could be faster, funds willing). Bye bye cable TV…bye bye eating out….bye bye fancy cell phone…bye bye this…bye bye that. No frills, no fuss, and completely worth it! It’s all about what you are willing to sacrifice!

Update on My Girl…

I love her. She has become the most amazing little girl. She has made the transition from being a ‘baby’ or a ‘toddler’ to becoming a ‘girl’ a full of life and full of fire girl! As hard as I thought it would be to see her transition into this new stage of her life, I am so proud, so very proud to be her ‘Mama’.

At five she is a solid ball of action. She is still willing to try new things, yet has developed a small sense of timid-ness, which I am honestly thankful for. When trying something new, something a bit scary, she can identify what amount of fear the activity creates and decide if she will do it again or not. Her mind is so sharp, so absorbent, so beautiful.

Recently she has taken to calling N & I ‘Mother’ and ‘Father’…cracks me up every time. She also likes to respond with the phrase ‘I suppose’…too funny!

The post office has become my new best friend…that and all the people ordering from Shorty Bananas and the winners from the auction. I am at the post office several times a week…glad it’s only a few blocks away.

I have found myself anxious to stay busy with little room for thoughts about baby. When I stop to think about the road ahead and the wait…it makes my heart ache. I realized I was doing this a few weeks ago and have made a conscious effort to reflect on baby and hopefully work through some of the emotions. I know this could take us a while to complete and I don’t want my emotions to wear me down. We are so excited, and feeling so blessed and loved by the people around us. Yet it is easy to feel overwhelmed by the journey…too easy. ‘Keep your eye on the prize’ as they say…I am feeling optimistic with the progress we have made so far. Honestly, the love and support from everyone is amazing, even too kind at times. The power of kindness is beautiful.

Today is a happy day.

Last Chance....

The AUCTION end in less than a day...if you haven't checked it out, please do.

Click HERE for large pictures of the items listed on The smiling heart.

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Happy bidding!




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It's Auction Time....

The AUCTION is officially in full force. PLEASE stop by and check out all the beautiful items. I am a little jealous that I can’t bid on the items because I love so many of them!!! I have really put my heart into 'the smiling heart' project and so far the response has been very supportive. I greatly appreciate the dedication from all the wonderful people we have in our lives as well as the amazing kindness of strangers. The whole process really does make my heart ♥ smile, I won’t lie I am exhausted by the amount of work involved in this journey, but I am happy, feeling blessed and wishing I could reach out and give a hug to you all for your support.

Please visit the AUCTION at The Smiling Heart. Spread the word, tell the world :)


** An additional thank you for your patience with my lack of posting, and my very limited updates. This is really all I have been doing and I have so many thoughts spinning around in my head, so many things to share, and a ton of Tae-isms to tell you. I’ll be back soon…I promise. ♥

New Items....

....At Shorty Bananas!!!

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