I can feel pieces of me coming back together. I can feel parts of me healing. I can feel my smile spread across my face…spontaneously throughout the day. I have been broken and lost…I have been sad. I feel this huge weight has been lifted from my shoulders…from my heart.
I feel like choices and answers have brought the light back into my spirit.
Last month we decided on a great agency and a beautiful country for our adoption, we made changes to our adoption plan...changes that made my heart smile. I finally feel like we are making progress on our adoption. I feel like I can actually get excited about our journey…it may take us awhile to complete…but we have finally taken the next step. I rang in the New Year with a diagnosis of PCOS. This diagnosis gave me answers that I desperately needed. A new doctor was the answer to my female issues, a new doctor with a new plan. I feel like I have been given back the control I felt I had lost…the control I desperately needed. I felt so helpless with my last doctor, with her explanations of what was happening with my body. I don’t feel helpless anymore, I feel powerful. We have decided to try this new plan, to try again, something that is both scary and exciting.
Last month was full of choices and answers…full of progress.
Glad you are finding answers and a way to form a new plan. Really bummed you have had to change course from the original adoption plan, but the important thing is you are making progress and feeling good about it!
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