The adoption process is long; it truly is a life journey. For us it is a journey across the world, but even more a journey of the heart.
Today I sat down and, without thinking about it, I made a list of items we will need to get for Milo’s room. Items for a little boy, our little boy…and it hit me…this is really going to happen! We are really going to become a family of four, we are really going to have a son, Taegan is really going to be a big sister…finally. We aren’t there yet, but we are getting close. We are closer than we have ever been before and I can feel it, I can feel him and I know he is waiting for us. And, a part of my heart breaks because I know the hard part is about to begin. The part where we see his face, and we love him even more than we love him now, and we are miles away, and we wait, and we feel helpless. I have been keeping myself busy for so long, working diligently toward this dream of our son, and now I wonder what will keep me busy for this last portion of our adoption??? What could possibly distract me from him??? Nothing.
I’ve always known that the path of adoption is difficult, that it is challenging and painful. Our journey so far has been long and emotional, but the discovery, and the growth has changed us, for the better, and we are so grateful for that. Today, I realized where the pain and the challenge lies and I took a deep breath to prepare myself for the ride ahead….because the real journey is about to begin!!!
The support that we have received has really made this journey possible. I feel that simply saying thank you is not enough…..then I remember the beautiful life that will be joining our family, his smile, his laughter…his everything…and I know that you will all rejoice in our dream fulfilled. So once again, thank you!
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